Since my sweet 6 year old sun is at home, I always listen to him.. and thereby get interrupted… but I really do love to listen to chakra healing sounds when I work.
But many years ago I could listen to anything, if my boyfriend was home watching television I could easily work.
But that changed… the more I experienced adverse communication from the people I trusted the worse I could concentrate.
And in 2021… I couldnt concentrate at all. And that’s where I discovered cptsd… and after spending lots of time on healing I now work really well with chakra healing sounds and music.
How I just love these prompted questions, it makes my day a little more creative. …
Since I am not the best chief,… one of my trauma responses to a bad relationship was not to learn how to cook, because then I just saw myself making everything at home… so when I got a child as 40 yo I was little doomed because I couldn’t cook that much.
So besides the food I know how to make, like pasta sauce and hamburgers and chicken and rice… I really want to learn how to use spices. I also really want to learn how to make food mixed with things and stuff, I just never know what to put in the pot.
And then I see these children in war zone cooking food for many people, and it looks so delicious even if they are in scarcity and anxiety, they manage to do what they can with what they got, I have som much respect.
I would like to cook vegetables in many different ways, in the oven, fried, cooked, you name it. But I somehow always loose hope when I start reading a recipe… hahaha but maybe this post could encourage me to learn to cook better and more diversely.
Horses =) hahahaha, well we do have a cat, the loveliest and softest and his name is Tigee. Meaning Little Tiger of course. My sun who was 3 years at the time, gave the name to Tigee when he came to our house as a little kitten.
But I love all animals, and I think we should learn much more from them and treat them as we want to treat ourselves.
In fact we humans have a tendency to forget that animals have feelings too.
Writing and reading and making templates to make life more beautiful and easy to live for myself and other people. That is what make me lose track of time.
I love writing, and can keep writing if I don’t stop my self, it is like one thought written on the paper making another thought I just need to feel like writing on the paper too. They are all entitled and legitimate to be on paper, I would be a bad person not writing down all of them, giving them air and room to be heard and understood.
Also reading a good book can make time fly fast, being in another universe. Normally I only read non-fiction, development books, but I feel the same as when I was little reading novels or fiction.
And then these templates, I can’t stop making, healing templates, daily affirmation templates, the dream journal I have on amazon and much more.
Worldwide there is a lot of different events to bother about, but since I only have little power, I try to only bother about things I can do something about.
When I was younger I bothered a lot about my inabilities, my past (without knowing it ) other peoples’s opinion about me, I bothered about becoming old, I bothered about getting wrinkles,… but then one day I realised that these kinds of bothering created a sort of anxiety within me. And I didn’t need that in my body.
I’ve learned about intersphere and stratosphere, intersphere is what you can do something about now, stratosphere requires a longer journey. Stay within the intersphere and suddenly you reach the stratosphere. Because you only get bothered about stuff you could do someting about.
This is the cool thing about looking back at my life with the knowledge I have now. I don’t get bothered as I did before, because I can see my botherness derive from the unhealthy patterns as the consequence of the c ptsd. Now I know when a feeling is from the past, I can detect it, before I couldn’t
Because of the traumatic experiences was on going, I forgot a lot of the stuff that I learned, I couldn’t integrate the knowledge properly in my daily life.
It really depends on which kind of adventure… I am not into som kind of India Jones adventure, and maybe it is because I have felt without safety that I don’t feel the urge to even travel. Doesn’t mean that I don’t want to travel, it is just that I need to feel secure in order to be able to enjoy a travel or an adventure.
And then what is security, for me it is to have enough resources that I have agency. No matter what kind of situation.
And of course an adventure get easier with enough resources.
Maybe life is an adventure in itself when resources are little?
This is a good question – and I know who I would invite. All my new friends from Palestine, and I would ask them their favorit dish and find a Palestinian chief here in Copenhagen and then I would make this chief make my new friends favorit dishes.
Because for more than 9 months they have not been able to eat or drink or sleep properly, and they don’t have the possibility to leave, and this prompted opportunity made it possible.
Understanding is my answer, the more experience I get, the better I understand.
Understand myself, understand others, understand current events in the world and in the society.
And it is a pleasure to understand where my reactions from ACE’s came from, why they developed, why they stayed, and even better it is to understand how I work with them to leave them in the past.
This was a short answer, but I really believe this is it.
I wish I was the steadiest person in the world, because I know that when I go to bed at the same time everyday my life is so much more beautiful and easy to live. I get more done during the day after having a nice sleep, and I sleep the best when I go to bed around 22.
But now we have summertime in Denmark, and the nights are so bright and light, and I enjoy it big time, writing till late night.
But I also like getting early up, because it is so quiet and the sun is out already at 4 am…
So sometimes I do one thing, and sometimes I do the other.
In the winter time though,,, I loooooove going early to bed, getting early up, and see the light come slowly ….
But for now it is summer and tonight my sun wants to watch the UEFA games, so it si gonna be a late summernight that I go to bed today.
What is your favorit time to wake up and go to bed?
