Worldwide there is a lot of different events to bother about, but since I only have little power, I try to only bother about things I can do something about.
When I was younger I bothered a lot about my inabilities, my past (without knowing it ) other peoples’s opinion about me, I bothered about becoming old, I bothered about getting wrinkles,… but then one day I realised that these kinds of bothering created a sort of anxiety within me. And I didn’t need that in my body.
I’ve learned about intersphere and stratosphere, intersphere is what you can do something about now, stratosphere requires a longer journey. Stay within the intersphere and suddenly you reach the stratosphere. Because you only get bothered about stuff you could do someting about.
This is the cool thing about looking back at my life with the knowledge I have now. I don’t get bothered as I did before, because I can see my botherness derive from the unhealthy patterns as the consequence of the c ptsd. Now I know when a feeling is from the past, I can detect it, before I couldn’t
Because of the traumatic experiences was on going, I forgot a lot of the stuff that I learned, I couldn’t integrate the knowledge properly in my daily life.
I am still learning, and I am not bothered.
What about you?
