That was me. Miss Inconsistency, until I knew better.
Bullying can really ruin a persons life.
And for many years I thought something was wrong with me.
I second guessed myself, until I read about the consequences
of being bullied.
One of them is inconsistency, and limitlessness.
When I realised that I needed to figure out, why did I get
inconsistent? And I needed to figure out how to set my limits.
Well first of all,
I didn’t know myself and I didn’t know my crowd.
So when I kept staying with people who
- turned me down
- ignored my feelings
- pushing my limits
- criticised my ways of dealing with a situation
then I felt like crumbling inside,
like small explosions in my body that made me so tired,
that I couldn’t keep up with the life I was trying to create.
Sometimes it is difficult to stay away from people,
but nevertheless, in order to change I had to learn to set
my limits.
This caused lot of troubles, and I literally lost what I considered
my crowd.
Because when I was being perceived as limitless,
it was ok for other people to change my plans in the middle of a storm
without asking me…
it was ok to step on my feelings even if I said it hurts.
My limitlessness was a result of the bullying I have
experienced since I was little.
Experiencing bullying in general for me has been so traumatic,
that without knowing it until now,
it has disrupted my efforts of creating an expected life structure.
One thing that would have helped me when I was 20, was how to
know how I actually felt.
And if you want to learn that too, then know that I have spent the last
20 years creating all the tools that made me survive with no help.
It is your life
get the best out of it
We are here for you
Marie & Anna
Piece 4 Love