Some times ago I had difficulties in showing I was vulnerable.
I wanted to be strong and ready for action. Or did I wanted to be like that or was it just a habit.
A habit of what I’ve learned a habit of what I was use to hear. The words that created my reality. Who I was, how other saw me and how I saw the world.
Even when people by their words hurted me I had difficulties in telling the truth about what they were doing to me with their words. I wanted to be strong.
But inside me it hurted … it hurted so much that I even now feel the pain… not by the words they used against me but the feeling of not defending myself. That hurts.
And now growing older and even if it still hurts I know that I did well, not defending myself. Not spending my energy to convince other people of the consequence of their doings. Some people will never understand.
And the best way I come further is to have eye on the positive people and the positive constructive feedback I get.
Because by being with people with whom I am aloud to be vulnerable it is also easier for me being strong in the way that makes me progress and develop my life…to my satisfaction.
Balancing between being vulnerable and strong.
How do you keep balanced ?
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