I was about 33 years old, I was living with a condition of unexplainable pains in my arms, and I was on a holiday in Sardinia, with my father visiting our family.
I came home late one night and while brushing my teeth, looking into the mirror I got a kind of download: that I actually never knew what would happen in the next minute, so it would be better to be happy now, like in now now. And then I took that decision. It was not new to me, I have read books about emotional intelligence and also of innovation and entrepreneurship and they made me have an open and curious mind towards life and people. But the download this night was so strong, that I still remember how I looked and the smell of the toothpaste.
Back to my vacation in Italy and what happened next:
In the morning I woke up really early, I did my pilates and had this kind of calm happiness in myself, with myself, it was awesome.
Until the phone rang at 7.10 am. It was one of my uncles who wanted to talk to my father. I was a little spicy and answered that since we were on vacation my father was still sleeping, and my uncle said, well I wouldn’t call if it wasn’t emergent. My father got up and took the phone and said 3 sentences:
Oooooh nooooo
Really
Ok I’ll wait for more info.
And then he placed the phone down and said, Uncle X has unalived himself. He jumped from the castle.
And there I was sitting in my newly decided happy state of mind, not knowing that when I got up really early making my pilates and being convinced that everything was good, my uncle was not feeling good.
So of course I was left a little speechless when my father told me what happened. .. and the only thing I could say.. in Danish,,, translated directly to English was: “that is some shit”, and my father answered: “yes you are right, that is really some shit”.
I wasn’t happy in like smiling, but on the other hand I wasn’t sad, I was more like empty. So I tried to think and called my cousin to tell him, and we tried to reach our other cousin who just lost her dad.
I don’t remember so much the following days, but I know that from that evening I decided to be happy and the day after experiencing this, I really decided that being happy was the best choice, and my Uncle would for sure have supported that, because he was not happy.
So now, everyday, I find the happy moments even if living in uncertainty, find the small things that made me happy, even with pain in my arms. and here almost 20 years later I am still practicing my decision of being happy everyday.
And I hope you do too.
Much Love
Anna
PS. If you are unhappy or just want to check yourself and your life, use this method of mine. The Wake Up Call
