When life feels fogy

I actually never thought about it, but life feels fogy sometimes.

Like, I can’t see where I am going or what I should actually bring with me.

Not physically but mentally.

I feel like walking in the clouds, not being sure if I fall every time I prepare a new step.

Which makes it quite paranoia like, to dare take a step everyday.

Then I thought back on knowledge I got many years ago…

We people have two choices in life:

One choice is to react instinctively, another is to respond appropriately.

And it occurred to me, that I’ve been reacting instinctively on many things in my life.

An example is turning into panic and sad feelings when people reject me. Even if I know it tells more about them than about me.

But then yesterday, I realised that reacting instinctively gives me more problems inside me.

So today I thought about how could I react properly. For my own sake. And I realised I had to cancel them from my social media, so I do not get back in the sad mood when I see posts from them.

I realised I had to cancel them from my life, and not following them on social media anymore, … maybe I am harsh. But my instinct reaction was to be panic and figure out how to make then unreject me. But that made me focus on negative energy.

So instead I focus on the positive things, and i try to respond properly to that. In order to build on what actually makes me smile.

And something I have had a really big difficulty of admitting, was all the direct messages I get from people I am connected to on social media. The thing is, I am really bad at writing back. And I have to arguments for that:

1. I have a problem with my arms and fingers, which paralyses me if I use them too much.
2. I get flattered and embarrassed at the same time, getting these messages.

So, I’ve been thinking about how I could respond properly and address this interest, in order to show the interest back.

And now I have made this video, a little introduction video… totally without manuscript and I made in one shot. NO time for regrets. It is totally authentic and real.

And you know what, after I made this video, it seemed as if the fogginess lighted a bit.

Thanks to all of you who inspires me everyday via Social Media and in Real Life.

 

Let me know what I can do better and keep asking me questions, I am preparing new videos about life to you.

Piece 4 Love

Anna